The Beginning

Let's be real - I've never kept up with a blog. In fact, I'm not going to share this with anyone until a month in to see if I actually stick with it. But the truth is, I'm finding myself writing a lot more these days. I don't know if it's because I'm an English teacher now, or just because I'm growing so full with thoughts, but I plan to just go with it.

The truth is, life has changed so much in the last year. I was a newly engaged, college senior last New Year's Eve with plans to go straight into graduate school after I finished my degree. Now, I'll be spending New Year's Eve with my husband before I return to my middle school teaching job the following week.

In the past, blogs have been about updating people with my life. This time, I think it's going to be about me working through me. The only reason I really want to publish it is that I have to believe I'm not the only recent college grad, newly married woman who is working through her identity. The only things I know without a doubt today are that my Lord has saved me and blessed me, and that I am married to the only man who could not only put up with me, but help me discover all the most beautiful parts of myself. Other parts of my life are very blessed, but I don't always know where I fit in.

This is just a jumbled mess, and why I'm going to wait to share this with people. But maybe this will be good for me. I'm always telling my kids to put themselves out there. Maybe this time I can take my own advice and show them that anyone can put herself out there.

I'm dangerously close to coming into myself and discovering the abundant life the Lord has for me. In fact, I think I am living that abundant life, but it's like a new haircut - I haven't washed it down and shaken it out so that it feels like my own yet. But those moments where it fits and feels like a comfortable old sweater (I'll definitely write about those too) show me that my adult life is going to be more than all I could have prayed and hoped for.

Keep Calm and Carrier On